Saturday, September 18, 2004
alot of things happened yesterday and today....
okok yesterday was that i argued BIG TIME with my project group mate over some stupid issues regarding the project..and end up she accused me of giving her problems...saying that i purposely din want to take in her suggestions ...always brushing off her suggestions... hmmm i dun think so .. she's just too sensitive that's all. ...yup.. it spolit my mood for the night... but when i met my dear dear later in the evening ..and after talking to him i felt so much better....
but today something bad happened again... this time round was with my dear dear ... hai i dunno am i petty or wat....well it's something really small.. but it meant alot to me... to him it was nothing.. but to me it meant a whole damn lot... i can never understand guys sometimes...they are really weird creatures....sometimes it makes me wonder if the problem lies with me instead.....i'm afraid of faield relationships...and i'm afraid it will happen again.. i dun wish it will happen...i hate to be lonely... i hate to do things alone....but why can't i behave like a modern women??? hmm like become more independent and stuff... i wish i can learn to be more brave...like an adult...i'm so kiddish.... hai....i wish wish i wish i can change....
but at the same time i'm so comfortable in this zone that i'm unwilling to get out... hai....wat to do???
sometimees i wish i'm someone else... and not myself... it hurts and its painful to be CILLIA YOW MEI YI ....and it's really torturous to be cillia...sometimes i wish i'm like a burden to
others...sob sob
going going gone 4:32 AM;
