My Black Garden.

Friday, March 24, 2006

there's no more 29th march..nor a celebration every 24th january
emptiness and lonliness is all i feel
i should take this time to embrace lonliness
i should take this time to think..

Lone....here i come...

going going gone 12:57 PM;

Tuesday, March 21, 2006

lonliness fills my heart
i am left to face this world alone all over again
no more love hugs or kisses
this world is as cruel as u can imagine

my little fairy tale will never come true
i suppose
the dream of wearing that beautiful white gown
with a beautiful tiara and a white heels
that little fairy tale will never ever come true for me

i think i can never believe in true love
because i think it does not exist
love does not exist
although i sincerely still want true love

when will it be my turn?
when will my prince charming come riding on a white stallion with a
nice white suit come kiss my hand
i believe such a fairytale....remains a fairytale....forever....

29th of march...perhaps this day will never come
a day of sorrows...a day of sadness...a day of lonliness

love me....that's all i ask of you....

going going gone 12:47 AM;

Monday, March 13, 2006

i miss you...
i miss you so much
i miss you oh so much...
i miss the times when we just sit around and do nothing
i miss the times when you hold me so tight
i miss the times when you hug me from behind...
i just miss you...
when will i see you again?

going going gone 10:17 PM;

Thursday, March 02, 2006

wonder why i haven't been blogging???too busy ...

anyway ..i'm feeling more and more alone as the day passes by... i seem to be losing everyone around me...perhaps it's just a matter of time...i'm afraid of losing the someone i cherish most...wanted to give up...but it failed...i thought i could get pass myself...but it the someone thinks i am paranoid...perhaps i shouldn't worry so much abt whether i will lose that someone...but think abt myself...whether i will lose the person i am...be selfish ....be very selfish....that's how the world run...i learnt...

i really cannot stand it when people think that u're stupid....plain stupid...they have to explain everything to u ...when u already said .."i understand" WTH la....cannot take it...ever wonder why the world is sooo unkind???people you thought who wants to spend time with you....actually talks behind your back...and i am quite irritated by some faces i see...dun noe why either...the more i see them... the more turn off i get ....dunno whether they can ever find another half if everyone thinks like me....all these are the accumulated stress i got over the past 2 months....

if you don't like me....don't hang out with me....if you don't like me...tell me...and if i think i cherish this friendship.. i will change....

going going gone 1:18 AM;