My Black Garden.

Monday, August 28, 2006

dinner with jamie at NYDC..i forced him to take a pic with me..cos he was soo unwilling...but i managed to persuade him to do so...heh...anyway i noe he will hate me for posting this pic ...but oh well..who cares... anyway yums...to NYDC's SOlid GOLD...super goood....it's cheese cake with a bottom layer of oreo cookie....plus a double chocolate fudge ice cream and a small teapot of chocolate fudge for me to pour over the cake and the ice cream.....yums...sinfulllly delicious....jamie's like telling me...devil likes to make bad things taste good...how mean...oh well...it's only once in a while for such indulgence...yums...

*smaller...nicer?*

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my day out with june!we had a good time at the manicure parlour...but june had a bad time maintaining her nails...heh...

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Sunday, August 27, 2006

i had a good time shopping with june my dearest today...and we went to try on some clothes..and i saw these super beautiful dresses...can't help myself...but to try them on...heh...here u go...

this blue dress is so so so so sweet man...i think i look good in it...seldom do i look good in dresses.. it is soo pretty...hope it's still there when i get my pay next month..which i highly doubt it will be...sigh...anyway i tried another dress and it is this black and white small checks dress....sooo cute... i look like i'm the 60s'..anyway i always wish i am born in that era...their clothes are sooo nice...

that was about the number of clothes i tried on today...was far to tired to try anymore...not enough of rest...the weekend is far too short..and i need good rest desperately...heh...i am getting kinda happy with my life..no committment and stuff...but oh well...sometimes u jjust want someone to be there for u only...just that someone...wonder who will do that for me...
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anyway these are some of the snipets of incident that happen to my classmates in SIA...those fun bunch of people...doing the craziest things...enjoy...

when ya bored in class u do this ...

behave like a monkey...

when ya hot in u can do this ...

stay in the fridge

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Saturday, August 26, 2006

i think it's over...that's fast eh...

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Thursday, August 24, 2006

react?
i am trapped in a situation
not exactly trapped
cos i can allow myself to be set free
but people are just weird at times
they want to experience something different in life
and so even if they are set free
they choose to remain in the cage
and so in a way i chose to put myself in this particular situation
making myself vulnerable once again
dilemma?
or is it not?
how can it be called a dilemma when a decision has already been made?
i want get out of this mood
i don't want to feel so emo
i want to enjoy every moment
and i won't want to feel used in anyway at all
sigh...this sux...

i shld get back to the busy mode...
i don't want to be involve in anything
i don't want to think about anymore things
just me myself and Cillia
that's all i want now...

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006

friday night and we celebrated another geraldine's birthday at KBOX...had a great time...went to Sushi Tei first to have our dinnner...and i invited Adrian to come join us...he's such a good sport...amazing...that's what i call social skills..see he's singing chinese songs!all the girls sang WANNABE again by the spicegirls..haha retro eh...haha and we made the boys sing some back streetboys songs...funny....=)))
anyway HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST GERALDINE!!!!!! the small yet strong girl...=)))) =))))

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.Jasmine.Celest.Huimin.Geraldine.Cillia.@ Velvet

had a hellva good time with my SIA batch mates on saturday night at Velvet...such lovely darlings...had soo much fun with themmm altho the music and everything else ain't that good....i feel like princess...with the cabin crew pass...it brings u to alot of places... gets u discounts...wow...40% on crew nights...ain't that great??!!haha...well we celebrated geraldine's 19th birthday..small girl..but a very mature personality...and i think age is not sometime that determines ur maturity...and i totallly agree with that ..cos i see alot of real life examples...
got somemore pics that wanna post...but waiting for that slow gera....super inefficient la,...but oh welll..she sent wat is the most impt first...heh...and that's what most impt...heh....
anyway saturday night was a very eventful night...besides the fact that i had a good time with my SIA batch mates...i also found out something...something really interesting...something really interesting...well shan't disclose it here...but it's something that i least expect...heh....

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Monday, August 14, 2006

went out with adrian, june and jamie on saturday...three separate occasions..all at one place...haha holland village..met adrian in the afternoon for coffee at The CoffeeBean and tea Leaf..it was pretty nice chatting with him...lovely eyes...oh well....

later in the early evening i met up with june again holland...haha...boring...cos she needed to cut her hair..so we went to NEXT, our favourite hairdresser..heh...WILLIE...he's one great stylist.. i nv hated any hairstyles he created for me...and they always make me look good...=)) thankful...i feel so secure whenever i leave my hair to him...after the hair cut, we had dinner..and june came to my place..and i dyed her hair for her...i think it looks great!..duh... i am a good "colour technician" ..hahaa...~~self praise is public disgrace~~

nights out with joooooo

after much later in the evening, i met up with jamie for a movie...MY SUPER EX-GIRLFRIEND..super hilarious show...but it's about true love...haha...something like that i suppose...well i think the most funny part is when Uma Thurman threw a shark into his apartment...just imagine....she got sooo angry that he slept with someone else...and she threw his car into space...hahaa...and wat's worst is when she used her LASER eyes and engraved "DICK" onto his forehead...just imagine... i wish i can do that too... girls can be very revengeful i think...after the movie we went to Crystal Jade @ holland village...my third time in holland on the same day...haha..had a good chat with jamie..i enjoy good converations..and he is able to keep the conversation going on and on and on....=))) i can't stand guys that are too quiet...it just gets on my nerves...if u wanna hang out...den make some noise...if u wanna keep quiet, u shld just stay home...haha...but i was too tired in the end...cos it was like almost 3am...so i told him i was too tired...and he sent me home...i think he is such a gentlemen...imagine...when he asked me wat kinda songs i like...i said jazz...immediately there was jazz playing in his car...oh my...wat a charmer la...

triple date...hahaa... i will consider going out with my dear joooo a date tooo...making full use of my weekend to meet up with more people...heh...and now i dread this whole week...cos i am going to have a test this coming wed and thurs...it's going to be both theory and practical..oh my.. i betta pass... if i fail... i will be soooo humiliated...hahaaa

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Saturday, August 12, 2006

i think i was at the wildest phase of my life yesterday night
can't believe myself either...gosh...
i realised i am really bad with names
and when i'm slightly intoxicated i can actually forget faces as well
and i did that just last night
imagine bringing this person around the place
and only realised that you wasn't even introduced to this person
funny la...
i will surely make boos boos once a day

and just this morning i made a boo boo and also lost my opportunity at something
but i believe in the idea of double-checking...
i forgot to send a sms and i checked my sent msges
and indeed i did my booboo of the day..glad i was double-ly sure..
sometimes resemblances can be quite bad..
cos it just reminds u of the horrible past
but the familiarity brings u closer to one person
because the closeness was already there in the first place
although it's a different person altogether
but it makes a whole lot of difference
but oh well.. i shouldn't complain

i am glad
i am happy
i am confused
i am narrow minded
hahaaa
all diversed!
there was attraction even before i came to a realisation
but well all things are not as perfect as they seem
will i ever get a chance?
nah...highly unlikely
but everything that happened kinda suggested everything
should i indulge myself in such a situation?
should i even get it all started
heh

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Wednesday, August 09, 2006

today i met up with geraldine, cos she wanted to cut her hair..she wanted a china doll look...but oh well..the hair dresser tot otherwise..so she had a neater hair cut instead...hee...so while waiting 2 hours for this small girl... i was trying to take a picture of myself sitting next to a lifesize glass window at NEXT hair salon..trying to look pretty...but failed...heh...

after the hair cut... we were sooo famished...we decided to indulge in some la mian and xiao long bao at crystal jade...yums...simply irresistable...i almost wanted to order two "longs" of xiao long bao..but i knew i wouldn't be able to swallow it...hee..greedy me...after our meals we went to per lover center and pet station...i think i want to own a pet cat one day...they are soo cute....esp the exotic shorthair..i like the ginger coloured ones...sooo cute...i was like cuddling it...i din wanna let go...wanted to take a picture of the kitten...but they din allow...sob...sob....i wish i could buy it... but oh well...company not paying me alot...haha...it's $1200!!!!! beyond my capabilities...for now...i like that kitten soo much...its temperament so mild...i love cats like that...i don't like cats that are shy..and coward...i love this one....if u guys are at pet station (i think so..next to subway) at holland v..it's there i think...very pretty...i wish i had money now...cos i would just have gotten him...

they are very cute...their faces are flat...sooo adorable....but too bad...i can't find the ginger coloured ones....

geraldine and i decided to take a picture before saying goodbyes...like my little sister...she's one girl that's really mature for her age..a sweet girl...

after i got home i felt sooo lethargic....the fatigue only set in soo much later...heh...i was lazing on the bed while catching NDP on TV...so sad i can't get NDP tickets .. i've never been to any NDP...besides to one rehearsal...but that was like when i was in primary 4 or primary 5...that's long ago....and plus this year is the last year at the national stadium...wat a waste la....heh... i must get tics to the NDP next year!hahaaaa.....

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i had a wondeful time at Zouk yest night with the same old bunch of peps...supposedly to join Claire and Kaiting and the rest at Phuture..but i realise that i really can't mingle with Claire's friend...different frequency...to the max...well..anyway i met up with my old pals; johnny, sueann, jason, alex...and some others like david..it was nice..

*happy*

but oh well my occupation was being make fun of by that stupid david la.."coffee tea or me" ...kept coming outta his mouth la...

*annoyed*

and yesterday night was the pan-asian boys night for me..hahha. ..it was funny... sueann and i were all surrounded by like 3-4 of them...and Sueann was like saying "we're like SPGs"...hahha ..WE'RE not!haha...

*amused*

and i came to a realisation that Hoegaarden tastes better in draught form...the bottled ones aren't very nice...after Zouk i went to join the rest for supper...while waiting for jason's car to come.. i almost got into a wrong car... i actually opened the door...and someone behind me actually tap me on my shoulders and said "wrong car"...hahaha that is super ma-lu-ating la...i always have my classic moments...bad..haha...and all the guys just gathered around me and laugh at me...yet at the same time to cover me...ahhaa cos they knew i was utterly embarrassed..glad they were there...and i kept telling jason that the cars look alike...but he insisted it was a totally different car....well it's BLACK...same...first time....i made a fool outta myself...cos jason disappear so i tot he went into the car...wat a goon..

*embarrassed*

i totally enjoyed myself ..*smiles*

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Monday, August 07, 2006

i think relationships nowadays are so unlike the ones our parents had
it's not just you and me
it's you me and maybe someone else along the way..
it's no longer the pure true and innocent love
it became lustful and greedy
more than one can ever handle.
one of my friend just encountered a situation like that...

imagine someone cheating on u on ur birthday...
imagine your the other half told u ...
"i slept with someone"
what would you do?
leave or stay?
the head side of me says "leave! he will do it again"
the heart side is more merciful
well to stay or not to stay really depends on oneself
the outcome...bad or good...have to live with it i suppose...

it is so scary ...cos u nv noe what will happen next..
everything is so fragile now...everything...
i am losing confidence...
jaded

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Sunday, August 06, 2006

i think i think too highly of myself.
fell from a height as high as a mountain.
painful.
all the time.
never once it felt less than an astroid in my face.
people tell me to take it easy.
living in a fairy tale land.
it only leads me to believing that true love exists.
truthfulness, honesty, and sincerity.
brings one far.
maybe i am wrong.
all the time.
smiles from me all fake.
not as happy as i look.
not as happy as i sound.
happiness is all i am seeking for.
but it is harder than one can ever imagine.
this multi faceted life of mine seems interesting.
ain't it?
nah...

just love me...

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Thursday, August 03, 2006

coming up with reasons if i am a horrible person to be with...

if i am someone like that
why are there so many people out there whom still enjoy my companionship?
if i am someone like that
why people (not guys) still ask me out?
if i am someone like that
why do i still get friendship hugs?

maybe it problems don't just lie with me
i believe that a "clap" require two hands
if one hand refuses to move...
it explains all
sometimes u just need a handful of them to cheer ur life up...
some are worth keeping and some are not...

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Wednesday, August 02, 2006

met up with my favourite JOO...(altho i only got one at the moment..haha) and Ms vannie..joo is such a nonsense she made me posed with SUper MRT man...haha...and i had no choice put to just point there... erm..yup there...heee....and soo many peopls turned around and looked at me..probably think i'm some childish adolescent

i love to hang out with Joo..she's a bunder of NONSENSE..hee..our last stop was at BK again...Liat Tower...i think we're the only three persons that made the most noise...and i meant NOISE...haha....

Back to training..it's getting a little boring...but my batch of people are really funny people...here are some of the crazy pics i took with them...and the kebaya pics

and the pic we took last weekend at sentosa beach

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