Friday, October 07, 2005
the void in me is consuming me
like i'm stuck in this situation that i cannot do anything about
it's either i leave it or work on it
it's really difficult
i don't know whether i should continue to work on it
or just leave it as it is
the pain is killing me
softly and gently cutting my every senses
leaving me jaded
it seems like history repeating itself
or am i seeing things?
my life's never been worst
why is it always happening to me?
why is it me?
why can't GOD play trick on other people...
all i want is stability
remember when you're younger
people used to ask you this question
"if you're walking along this forest to meet your final one"
"would you choose the long journey but filled with wonderful scenery and beautiful animals"
or"would you choose the short cut..but you will see the darkest of all things...and the hideous creatures ever..but u'll see ur final in a very short while"
after all my experiences.. i think i would choose the first...i do not want roller coaster rides anymore...i just want someone who is there for me...slow and steady...maybe i may not have to be in one..but when i do find one...it will be forever.....i do not want tears anymore....i want laughter smiles and joy....
going going gone 3:30 AM;
