Wednesday, July 12, 2006
my life is getting monotonous on weekdays...and only slightly more happening on fridays..i think i am really getting into the momentum of a working adult...waking up really early everyday ...sleeping before 12am everynight...cos if i don't... i will become a zombie the next morning...yea...life's boring...but i think when i start flying i will really have no time to meet up with my friends...and that's really sad...and i won't get any leave till probably next year MAY..my life's pathetic...i really need to go on a healthier diet soon.. i put on 1.5KG in abt less than a month..gosh... i don't know what shit i have been eating...no more rice...no more carbo...let's talk about other stuff...the weight issue is making me feel miserable...anyway recently i know this friend...and he is married..well.. and worst... i found out that his wife is pregnant and is going to give birth in less than a month time...and he asked me out for a dinner...i feel that it is soooo wrong..call me a conservative shit...okok... i am ASIAN+chinese... i am slightly more conservative..yea...i feel that if i am the wife of this guy.. i will feel so horrible even if he is not interested in this lil girl...cos he rather go out than to spend time with her at home...and nurse that growing foetus...erm baby...in the stomach...well i don't think i want to go out with him..cos i don't wish for any problems...too many problems on my own...maybe when i have a less conservative mindset... i might agree....meanwhile i don't think so...i have been neglected and left out...it feels bad...cos u think u are special..but when u're not invited...the feeling sux...cos what you think is not what exactly true...and i don't understand why...i've been nice...i've been compromising...well...maybe that's not enuff....anyway i wil just concentrate on this new job..and stop worrying...about all these trivia stuff...if it's meant to be this way ...it will eventually happen one day...missing you still...how do i forget you?
going going gone 10:38 PM;
