My Black Garden.

Saturday, July 29, 2006

unsure of the pathway that i am on
so unclear
do not know where i am heading
following the gust of wind occasionally
led me to places
happy ones
sad ones
preference?
sadistic i am
maybe because i learn more from the sad ones?
confused
anxious
afraid
the strong winds are here again
carry me to places i've never been to

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went to Wala Wala yesterday, had hellava good time!i totally enjoyed myself with the SIM peps..they are so funny and so easy to mingle with...sociable...easy-going...FUN especially..he came too!it was great cos i was so afraid that he might not be able to mingle well with this crazy bunch of peps.well i was wrong..he had a great time.and it was fantastic...and i had the classic Cillia Moment again... i fell of the high chair in Walas...haha...imagine...the band haven't started...and it was not that noisy... everyone just turned around and looked at my direction...and all my friends were shocked to see me on the floor...so sympathetic...haha...i was pathetic la...now my left calf still hurts...*ouch* sob......i am so clumsy la...hope i will not get a super gigantic blue-black lar...the lead singer from EIC was so shocked to see me on the floor..hahaa he just looked at me in disbelief...haa...Cillia...you're always getting yourelf into "BooBOo" moments..and i got a compliment from the EIC lead singer.. i think his name is Ray...hee...say i got nice short hair...and not everyone can put off a short hair cut...haha...thanks Ray ...that's sweet..made my night...

anyway i just watched LakeHouse on Wednesday...and it was fantastic!soooo good...well i cried almost throughout the show...cos i was soo touched and i could relate to some of the stuff inside...when u're able to draw relations to movies...u'll tend to be more emotional...so i was...this movie don't only consist of love between man and woman...it also includes family love...love between siblings..i wish i have the moment of finding someone soo perfect and willing to put up with whatever barriers that might come along the way..and most importantly....he must have faith in me...anyway i cried till my eyes were swollen..and when i asked him whether it was...he said it was not...but when i looked into the mirror...hahah ...GOSH!!!!!!!!!!... i looked soo bad...can never trust guys on how we look...they are so insensitive to fine details...well i think GOd created man this way...so that they can have better idea of the whole BIG picture...hee...( i am just trying to SUGAR-COAT it..)

Sandra Bullock and Keanu Reeves are so compatible...

their reunion..

Their Lake House

Their Dance...to This Never Happened Before

so near yet so far...

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