Saturday, September 16, 2006
been a really busy and tiring week for me..and i'm glad it's finally over.. but i think it will be worst next week...cos i will be preparing for the Supernumerary flights that going to be on on next saturday...i am very afraid of making mistakes on flight..like for example giving wrong information and etc...
this week is probably one of the most melancholic week for me..i don't feel good at all.. emotional, physically, and mentally...i feel so stressed out..i feel i am not appreciated in anyway... i feel that my efforts are not paid off.. i feel inadequate..i feel like i haven't achieved much... i hope next week will be a better week for me...altho i know the going is going to get tough i wish i will be tougher to handle these SHIT that are probably going to come my way next week onwards...
regarding me feeling emotionally down.. i am actually very jaded about certain things in life...both in my family and socially...it has been affecting me all week..i wish i can just sleep it off..sighh..if only things were so simple...
sometimes people are just so fickle..and their fickle-ness inflict onto others and they don't even realise it themselves..but thinking about it.. i think i am actually very brave..cos i was able to confront the situation and speak to HIM in a very adult manner...at least things are solved..not complicated...maybe not SOLVED...but more like it's less complicated...like what HE said..."SIMPLE FRIENDSHIP"...well i felt so shitty after a few days later...cos den i realised how much i was led on during the one month...and to think all HE said was.."i take on full responsibility for what i said"..what responsibilities are u willing to take?...i think age do not gauge how mature one is..being able to know what one is doing and why are they doing it measures one person's maturity level...
anyway i was reading up on JUICE mag this month..they have this news flash on whose Converse Shoe is the diritiest..haha... so i sent in mine...it's so disgusting can...hahaa....look...
disgusting eh...i betta win that...haha so i can get a new pair of Converse shoes..i want to have a high cut Converse Shoe...it's so nice...i always have reservation about high cut converse..cos i am short... but i think i have to take away the mentality and try to be able to pull off "tall" stuff and make them look nice on me...heh....
going going gone 12:07 AM;
