Thursday, October 05, 2006
i am depressed...well ..for many reasons...i am getting sick from what i am doing and the state i am put through..all the time...maybe getting into this job isn't a bad thing..it is good cos u can get out of the country and enjoy some moments of peace and get out of some chaos...and take sometime to reflect about some stuff...yesterday while i was having dinner with my batchmates/colleagues, one of them wanted to pray for us...so he was telling me what God wants him to tell me..HE said i need to take less advices from people around me...and living my life dependent on those advices..those people who offer may not have the best advices ..because they themselves can't solve problems like that...another issue HE said..was that i need to accept the FACT that NO ONE IS PERFECT...i think mayb this is the fact that i expect alot from people...expecting people to meet certain standards i have in a way set...i felt what my colleague said was soo true...and HE also spoke about my family...when i did not discuss anything with them about my family at all..this is sooo miraculous...i am amazed...still amazed...i will take those advices from HIM though..those are the things i often missed out...there's soo many things i want to do to my life... i wish i can achieve them one day...
when reality sets in
emotion boils
it's getting harder each day
the need to stand firm on the ground grows
without strength, i might just topple over anytime
the mask i wear becomes more different from my real self everyday
traumatizing
going going gone 11:28 PM;