Saturday, October 14, 2006
there's this void in me..i think this emptiness has been there for a very long time...i can't seem to fill it up at all...the need to contain it is so overwhelming...i could have rub off some of this void onto other people...maybe i shld learn to accept that this emptiness is only a norm and will perhaps stay for a really long time...i've been trying..maybe i haven't really tried hard enough to rid this feeling in me...just like this booth..i'm standing next to it..waiting and waiting for the call..THE CALL...but...everytime as the anticipation reaches a new level, i am left disappointed with a prank call...the jaded feeling gets worst...what's worst is when THE CALL seems like THE CALL....but it isn't...the "shittiness" is at its nervana stage la....goshhh....yesterday i was at Zouk..i noticed one particular person...he is very young..and he has this very optimistic way of handling things...from the everything he says and reacts to...i think this person will go very far in life...maybe i should be like him...u can't please everyone in this world...but don't u think it's such a contradiction?if u don't please them...u make them feel bad...and end up u will be the one who is sad...pleasing the world makes u feel bad...not pleasing the world makes u feel bad as well...sooo what shld i do?i really do not know...but to take one step at a time...and react accordingly...anyway just now i was at Borders and i bought a book...yes... a BOOK!!!!! finally i am going to start the reading habit..don't know whether how successful this habit will nurture...haha....the title is called THE SHROUD OF THE THWACKERS...funny the title it may sound...but i think it's a pretty interesting book.. i love the cover esp...=))))) hope i will and can and be able to finish off this book...hahahaaaa.................
going going gone 8:15 PM;
