Sunday, December 17, 2006
that question you asked made me feel so uneasy...i felt so uncomfortable...i thought that was not the most important thing...but it seems like to you...now i am so hesitant about staying on...i feel this big gap between us right now...it seems to be widening...it totally caught me off guard...i never expected something like that will come of you...but it did....i am so afraid now...both losing you...and also having you around... i do not know how to face you....i am so ashamed....but it's not like i did something wrong...but by not knowing myself well enough...makes me feel uneasy hanging out with you...cos THAT seem soooo important to you...i just have to search myself first....i miss u already....
going going gone 2:05 AM;
