Wednesday, April 25, 2007
i feel so "constipated" now.. i dun mean literally...i feel trapped...trapped in a situation created by myself...my friend just told me something earlier..."cillia if you don't feel like smiling...don't smile...don't force yourself to do things you don't like"..for a while i was pondering over what he said... and i feel sad...even sometimes when i am not happy with someone...i still smile... i do not show people my unhappiness.."cillia you're allowed to be unhappy" "there's no need to take things too seriously...there are better things to be serious abt" i think so too..."if the person is nice...he will accept your past...as long they don't surface in the present anymore"...my dear friend johnny told me so much in the ten mins conversation we had in the car...i feel that he is soo blessed..he got a gf that gives him so much love..space..everything a man can probably ask for...i feel happy for him...meanwhile...i shld learn to let loose...like wat gekko said..gekko really teaches me alot of things...he may not be the best person in the world...but hearing advices from him makes u want to use them..the art of detachment...yep...that is what i've been trying to master all along...this coming 26th april i am going to visit a fortune teller...i want him to read my love life...my career..my financial health...and my family...something gd gotta come outta it...
going going gone 3:44 AM;
