My Black Garden.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

another sunday is coming to an end...and i am off to another long destination...long stay i mean..well...time passes so fast...it's getting harder and harder to catch hold of it...therefore i am trying my best to enjoy every moment when i am with someone i cherish....i am getting more and more melancholic as the day goes by...alot of thoughts...i wished there were happy ones...

anyway heading to Manchester in a while time...i hope it will be a nice place to sight see and walk around...and plus the weather is so nice...hope everything turns out well...=))))

going going gone 6:03 PM;

OOSH at Dempsy Rd

this is for Mr Singh...hahaa...

my buddy

the girlies without huimin...sighh

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Friday, May 25, 2007

have u hugged someone u like alot but u can't have him?till it hurts so badly...the only thing that you can say is sorry, fearing that he or she will leave you?so that you'll hurt less...?maybe the only thing needed here is closure?but i don't want a closure...i don't want things to end...but it it fading fast...have you ever wanted to be so close to someone...but you can't?the person is just pulling himself or herself away from you?just because of a principle?maybe something that he or she holds on so dearly...it really pains me to know that something will never be mine...no matter how hard you try to suffice it...all it takes is just to ignore future for a while...maybe just for that moment...things would be perfect...

going going gone 5:34 AM;

Thursday, May 24, 2007

my life is in a stand still..nothing's changing..nothing's exciting...just stagnated...totally stagnated...the melocholy is setting in...i can hardly bring myself to smile at anything...there's probably no reasons anymore.. i cannot find anymore valid reasons to put on that warm smile to brighten someone else's day...

i suddenly sat down yesterday and thought my life...i could hardly see myself with anyone at this point in time...no one...guess lone is my best friend now...i saw that keychain..i was torn...it was there...i cannot pretend that i didn't see it...i saw the teddy tooo...i pretended again...but all these came to haunt me...i feel so exasperated...there's nothing i can do...the more i try to express, the more i will push him away...but hiding it really eats cillia away...

just now i was talking to my dear friend...i could not help it but broke down...again...anyway...i really wish life was simpler...ABC 123 do re mi...heh...

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Wednesday, May 23, 2007

testing testing... yea.. blogger finally is in proper condition..sorrie everyone i haven been uploading any pics...haha.. i will now....

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Wednesday, May 16, 2007

i think i grew a lil to fast compared to my friends in jc...

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Thursday, May 10, 2007

wooohoooo!!!! i just came back from Rome this morning...it was really a beautiful experience...i did not go to the Vatican City nor did i go to the Colosseum...i just walked around the city on the first day and on the second day i went to this lil island called CAPRI...in fact this lil island is very famous...but i really never heard of it till the captain mentioned it...i am so glad i made a trip there...altho the stay was really short...like 2hrs?,,the travelling took abt 3 hrs plus plus...but i think the experience of travelling in a foreign land is really an exciting experience..i love it!

anyway i took a lot of pictures in ROME and in CAPRI..here you go...

visual feasting...yums...

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Thursday, May 03, 2007

the happiest thing that can ever happen is that when you love someone..and the someone returns that love as well...but i guess it just never happens to me...ever since march 2006..
i have high hopes....but my hopes are alway dashed...Mr RIGHT will never come...wish i am pretty, intelligent, tall, and amazing...but i am not..

trying to channel myself to other distractions..but i can't stop myself from thinking about the WHAT IF's...and i am back to zero again...

sighh...i need to get really busy and totally distract myself...or destroy my phone...and internet access...hahaha....NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...

wish miracles happen....

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