Thursday, June 28, 2007
day out at ZOUK
going going gone 12:03 AM;
Saturday, June 23, 2007
maybe solutions are never meant to be positive...they can be destructive...cos they are just there to solve problems...but by solving one problem might bring about a greater problem...
i realise that the greatest killer is silence...only then u can stop any sane fellow to stop talking...that's just what i did...maybe just a smile will solve everything , instead of engaging yourself in a foolish blabber...
recently my my life has been topsy turvy...whatever that might come out of it..i really don't know...but i am enjoying every minute of it...savouring every second...sensitive to every moves..loving every moment of it all...
going going gone 5:23 PM;
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
celebrated my dearest JOO's bd last fri...and boy i really enjoyed myself...went to P.S Cafe for the first time...and the ambience was great.. a nice cafe that is like a green house...beautiful flowers wonderful settings...nice....it will be even better for a sunday brunch....=)
wat a fun night....heh....
wat made me more happy was what happened next..heh....
going going gone 3:55 PM;
they told me i shld take pic with this crap..*oops*... crab...when i visst Namba in Osaka...haha an icon...funny....so i did...
these are the people that asked me to...went 100yen shopping...visited almost 3 100 yen shops...hha.a.a.and spent 2900yen...wat nonsense...hahahaa.a.a.a.
and i also bought my fave japanese singer's cd *mika nakashima*..nice...
and for the first time i tried raw scallops...and it tasted fine..=) i shall conquere my fear of raw food...and enjoy japanese fine cuisine for the first time...hehh...
going going gone 3:46 PM;
Sunday, June 10, 2007
there is no definite time...perhaps never might be the eventual answer...as i slowly put myself in the state of denial...believing is what i do best...someone just knocked some sense into me...and i felt like shit all over again...why does it have to be me?did God chose me to play a trick on me?watching good things taken away by people?watching people having the best of both worlds..yet i stand there empty?it has always been like that since 1984..i never get the best...people outwin me all the time...i stand there empty and alone...just when i thought i have everything...they slowly slither through out of the holes between my fingers...maybe happiness will never be mine...no matter how hard i try to hold onto to it...or pursue it..emptiness is slowly creeping into me again...swallowing my every being...all i want is just someone to be there for me...why do i have to earn it?some people get it all....they don't even need to work for it...
people say i am nice... i am good...what for?what good does it make?it won't change anything...nothing...it is slowly eating me away...
going going gone 4:06 AM;
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
a message from my dear friend...
"dont feel inadequate.
everyone is like blocks with different shapes.
a triangle can only fit into a triangle hole.
a square only a square hole.
if a triangle were to force itself into a square hole, sure you think something is wrong with you.
but if you find the right hole, it will be a perfect fit and you will feel perfect.
i hope and pray you will find your perfect match soon "
going going gone 3:34 PM;
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
going going gone 6:59 PM;
you lose one thing....you lose another...and slowly you lose everything...does it always happen like that?why can't things be perfect?i tried to help...and i made everything worst...why can't he realise that i am only human...?why can't i feel the way i do?i will learn to detach myself...and this time i am for real... i am going to feel better...nothing's going to bring me down...i will work hard to make it happen...i know it's not easy...i will probably go for the easier way out...and you know what's the easiest way out...
why is that only people can be sad...and i have to be happy to make people happy?i wish i got someone like me in my life as well...it hurts so much... i wish i am non existence at times...i wish nothing like that ever happenened to me...but well...i can never ever turn back time to change everything....can i?
going going gone 6:46 PM;
day out at ZOUK
joo looks happy!!!
yawnzzz****
myself june and vannie
they told me i shld take pic with this crap..*oops*... crab...when i visst Namba in Osaka...haha an icon...funny....so i did...
